Valeria Kimani has opened up like never before about her past life that almost pushed her to the limit without her even knowing.
The former reality TV star and Tusker Project Fame’s sweetheart opened up about how relationships became her “drug” of choice. Her addiction to relationships became her peril that brought her detriment in the long run.
Now a Wholeness Coach even though she aspired to become a Hollywood star just like Lupita Nyong’o, Valerie Kimani went on to explain her how her affection and love to others were almost always taken for granted which ultimately led her to block herself from reality, a move that worsened her situation.
Taking to social media, Valerie Kimani who has an adorable child together with Eric Wainaina listed some of the things she had to do in an effort to fit in relationships that never materialized.
Valerie Kimani who is a talented musician noted that they only served to destroy her spirit and inner self.
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Kimani saw the best and only way to save herself from herself was to free herself from toxic relationships that had been anchoring her down for years without her even knowing.
“Some people smoke, others drink. For most of my life, relationships have been my (subconscious) drug of choice and they almost killed my spirit.
My name is Valerie. I didn’t set out to be a Wholeness Coach. I wanted to be a Hollywood star like Lupita (don’t we all 😭).
But even more than that, I wanted to stop hurting. I just didn’t know how. The people I loved and valued the most were also the most dismissive and neglectful.
‘You’re soooo sensitive/too needy/too much!’
I learnt early that I needed to shut down to survive. Shutting down is dangerous. You don’t recognize when you’re past your limit. You don’t feel the damage until it’s too much.
My empathy was my Achilles’ heel. The thing that allowed me to keep forgiving/justifying/enabling when what I needed to do was protect it from being exploited.
I constantly gave up relationship with myself for a relationship with someone else. Hello codependents 👋🏽 I ignored red flags so I wouldn’t be alone. I sacrificed my boundaries to belong
I sabotaged my character for intimacy. You know that bitter-sweet toxic high…
I settled for sex when what I really wanted was to be held. I lost my voice to keep the peace. I thought it was me! I was the problem. The broken thing that needed fixing.
After years of invalidation and surviving two smear campaigns, I finally get what role I played in perpetuating the cycle.
I’m not crazy! I was just living in a crazy world, trying so hard to make it feel normal.
Here I am now, mid-thirties, on the other side of a͟l͟l͟ my trauma, looking at God like 👀
I didn’t know it was possible to be free from toxic relationships. To be fully healed from past trauma. To know unconditional love. To love my life 🙆🏽♀️
It took intentional work, but it’s possible.
If any of this resonates with you, I am called to be of service to you.” Valeria Kimani shared online in the lengthy post.
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